So, I am 14 and I have been self-harming (cutting) for almost a year now. I feel like whenever I get something I right, it disappears the second afterwards. Nobody likes me (literally) and my friends stopped talking to me. Back in October I was pretty suicidal, I didn't want to keep living my life in hell. My parents got divorced and that's when it all started. Now they sue each other all the time and my dad is doing everything to ruin my mom's, my sister's and my very own life. I am called a ***** in school because I kissed ONE fucking boy. I have nobody to talk to. I like this boy since like August but we were never a couple. So I kinda made a promise to God; if I stopped having suicidal thoughts and stopped cutting, he would let me be with the boy I like. But as usual, that didn't happen. So I started cutting again. It's the only thing that takes the pain away. I want to tell my mom that I cut, that i need serious clinical help. But she's going through a lot with my dad and all, I don't want to cause any more trouble for her. I'm also scared of her reaction. And if I do tell her, how do I do it? How do I tell her? How do I start the conversation?