I really need help some ten years or so ago myself and another boy got accused of interfering with a 5 year old girl. these were false accusations but now it has re-entered my mind I cant sleep half the time, i feel so alone depressed and really suicidal (eg looking on the net each day for the easiest and most painless way)i have to push myself to eat and always paranoid about the police coming to the door to take me away. Now at 23 i have 2 kids and a partner. I cant talk to my partner about this she would hate me for telling her. I dont know where to turn. I dont want to end it I love my life what can i do to stop these thoughts I cant talk to anybody i know about them.