I'm wasting my life away and I don't know what to do. I suck, I hate myself, I am so boring, and I can never show the appropriate reaction to any situation. I can't even be myself around people, it so hard and I don't know why. I need to do something quick to change my life around, but fuck I'm just too unlucky. My nerdy friends from last year and change to a very outgoing party person, and almost every college students do change, except me. Shit, I have gotten so much worst since high school, that I have trouble even saying "hi" to people, like I couldn't do it if my life depend on it. I hate myself, I hate people, I can't talk to them, maybe I intimidate them, maybe I just suck, probably I am not very friendly cause I don't talk much when I'm depress (99% of the time). Fuck my stupid living horror life.