Hi there, Im sorry your having a hard time. Can you come back on and talk to us, maybe we can help out, or just talking may help you relieve some of the pressure.
I understand what you mean, its hard to see so many around you making so many bad choices in life and getting away with it, still living a normal functioning life. But can I say we dont know whats going through thier minds, I think I put up a good front that hardly anyone knows how I truly feel. So lets not worry about them, lets talk about you.
When did you notice this starting to happen, have you always been a loner? I didnt use to be but seems the older I get the more closed in I get and its hard, no lie. Not being able to have interaction with others, then when you do and talk 100 miles a minute people look at you like your crazy. You know they say woman need to say 20000 words a day, men only 7000. So yes we do need to talk and to be talked to.
How can you change that, can you invite some people over for dinner? Maybe call someone up for a movie, maybe even hint around to why noone wants to hang out with you.
Either way, I wanted to let you know your not alone, my box is always open if you ever want to talk.
Hugs, hope tomorrow treats you better than today.