Last night I had a total near-meltdown. I was depressed the past few days for god knows why and then it hit me I won't be able to see Dr. Greene (my psychiatrist) or Jana (my therapist) anymore (they don't take my insurance anymore), and I have to find new people...and I panicked...(which I haven't done yet, so I've been without counseling for a month and a half which is very bad) I seriously scare myself sometimes. I feel like I'm drowning in black water in a box and I can't get out. That's what it feels like. I just want to end it all. I've been okay for the past month or so, and now I can't breathe.