Hi everyone. I've not posted on this forum a lot cause I really don't know what to say that's not already been said by hundreds of others. I'm suicidal; there are many people here with similar problems, and it's no good talking to me about 'friends' or family being hurt if I die. That doesn't help. Nor am I religious and I don't believe life is 'precious'. I don't care anymore. Things are down hill from now on. To be honest, if I had a method that I knew would work for certain I'd already be dead. <mod edit helena: asking for means, method...> Anyway, you might remember my post here: http://www.suicideforum.com/showthread.php?t=18834 Well I was just talking to this friend. Things have been really bad for me and are only getting worse. I couldn't even go to work today. She wants me to get help, real help but I can't. I don't want to end up in a psych ward. I couldn't never talk to anyone about this, face-to-face and I don't want to get doped-up. I don't want to face my family with these problems - I was always the loser in the family and this will only prove them right. I've read that depression is an illness and should be treated like any other illness, but I just can't fully believe this. I just want to die. What should I do? What would happen to me if I went to my GP with this?