Hello and before I start I want to say thank you for clicking on this. I am in very big need of an advice or someone to talk to. I never thought that I will search for it on online platforms, but my need keeps growing and I am at very bad state of my mind. I can't process information clearly and I barely can focus on anything else right now. My case is very unexpected and it's making me feel devastated. I feel unable to explain my emotions the way they are, but I will try my best. It all started today when I understood that my family is falling apart. I'm in a situation where I have to make a decision. I don't feel like explaining the whole story here, since the platform is very big and there are many people seeking help and support. I want to ask for a listener and I will be very thankful if I find one. I had hard times with my family almost all of my life and they keep having huge impact on me and by falling deeper I found that that I have depression. I tried to cope with it for years and I thought I did quite handle it, but since this problem that came back in my life, I feel like I felt back in the same place. I don't feel anything ans I had several panic attacks and I had to take medications. It's very hard to tell what you feel when the events hit you out of nowhere and when you are alone. I really need to talk to someone who may had similar problems before, someone that knows what is a family struggle. I will explain the situation shortly for information. My mom is an alcoholic and she have problems with her nerves. My dad is overworking and he too is not at his best state of mind. My parents are divorced, but they live together. They don't get along anymore and it's getting worse. I decided to talk with them and make them tell each other how they feel. But I have to make bigger decisions and for this I really need to explain the whole situation. So please, if you are willing to help, comment here and we can find a way to communicate. I will be active here mostly maybe the whole night, because I really need and I will appreciate the help that I am seeking for.