My problems seem so insignificant compared to the ones I've read but I wanna start off by saying I am extremely sad. I feel all alone majority of the time and I have no one to talk to. I can't think back to a time where I was truly happy. For some reason during the summertime these feelings peak to a high dangerous level and I often contemplate suicide. I have family, but they are nowhere near the optimistic type. I can't go to my mom and tell her how I feel because she is very judgmental and she would do something crazy like put me in some type of facility for "help." The last thing I want is to be put away. I'm about to be a senior in high school starting August and the past year I've been thru a lot in my opinion. My "first love" and I broke up and he already has a new girlfriend and that right there should be enough to make the average teen really sad . I cried everyday for about 2 weeks. On top of that I have no one I can truly call a friend. My supposedly best friend stood me up today and I ended up crying not just over that but over everything in general. During the summer I am in the house every single day with nothing to do. No one text or calls me. And every time I go online I see my ex and his new girlfriend. I'm so nice and outgoing and people that know me think I am happy and carefree. I'm so confused because during the school year I am surrounded by people I call friends but during summer break they seem to disappear.... I don't know I guess you could say I'm just really sad and I am extremely lonely. I try to think of ways not to be but I just don't think it's possible. Even when I think of the future I see myself as the same sad and lonely individual and if this is what my life will always be like, then I would prefer not to live at all.