I can't do this anymore. It is too painful, I didn't even know life could become so horribly, unbearably painful. I NEED to die, I cannot keep fighting, I have fought for too long. I've tried to keep hold of that hopeful thought that things might get better for too long. They haven't, they've got worse. I am desperately unhappy, I just can't go on. please help, i don't want to want to die. ( if that makes sense) but i just can't bear this life.