ok, so today i have decided when to commit suicide, and i feel really really happy, but there's one thing left bothering me, my family, i dont want them to be sad , so what should i do? I dont want them to feel guilt or anything else. I know they dont care about me anyway, they just pretend they do. well what happened was, i originally decided to commit suicide last may but then i got really happy because i was so looking forward to doing it, that i made huge mistakes, i did things i would never usually do, but then i couldn't go through with it, because i wanted that false sense of happiness to stay alive(it was much easier to live that way). so, i done some very shameful things and now i cannot live with these conditions i have created for myself, and the worrying and guilt. any one have any suggestions? They would be very much appreciated!