I am having a SERIOUS life crisis and don't know what to do. I'm a very confused guy and on the verge of doing something to myself. I am 34 and for the past 18 years been out of work. Yes I said it correct ....18 years! why? I have suffered SEVERE abuse as a child which has left me crippled mentally. I have attempted suicide 3 times and almost succeeded once and been under the doctor officially for the past 18 years. They have helped me but it took a very long time for me to get better. I am at the stage now where I want to try and make something of my life and not just carry on being and doing nothing but I really don't know where! I do not have any real skills or anything else. You may think I have done this to myself being I have been out of work for so long but believe me it has been beyond my control. If I could had worked years ago I would had. I did certainly but failed many times but it seems now I have left it wayyy to late in the day to try and get my life together and especially with the economy the way it is there probably could not be a worse time to find opportunities. Sorry if this went on for so long but please help me I think if I don't get something together! I not sayin it for attention but to give you an idea how serious this is for me. What would YOU do if you were me? I need someone to hit me with the brutal truth......not some happy go lucky b.s. am I finished? I rather be hit with the truth than carry on delluding myself that I stand a chance in life at this point. Thankyou.