help with abusive mother?

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by Dante Ramirez, Jun 25, 2016.

  1. Dante Ramirez

    Dante Ramirez New Member

    I need help, but let me start from the beginning
    ive been cutting scince I was in the fith grade and also have gender identity issues, along with some on and off bulimia, I started highschool this year and everyday of highschool has been hell, I get pushed around, hit and ended up getting in trouble after I hacked into the school and grabbed everyone's passwords. around second semester I was, I don't want to say raped more like sexualy assaulted, and my only friend ran away to become a prostitute and lived under an overpass, where she died from doing to much meth. I failed 4 classes this year I probably will have to redo the year, but towards the end of the school year this kid in my Spanish class had heard the guy who assaulted me bragging about it in class, I later found out that after he had heard that he pushed the guy down some stairs and gave him a black eye, we became good friends and he invited me to smoke with him and a few friends who went to a different school, I of course said yes and snuck out to see him, well my mom found out, and my mom is not a good person she has anger issues and dosent believe self harm and eating disorders are real she thinks they all are just for attention, she calls me attention whore a lot and even though I've been cutting since 5th grade and had an eating disorder at 6th she just now got me a therapist because the school made her after a failed suicide attempt and a gun threat at school. as soon as I got home she started hitting me she yanked my ear gauge out and busted my lip, she took my phone away and isn't giving it back until Christmas that way she doesn't have to buy me any gifts, I'm typing this on my dsi btw, my friend knowing my mom told her mother about what my mom did and she said I can live there until I'm 18, and they said I can drop out of school (there where 6 kids in the house and all over the age of 13 didn't go to school they worked to support the family, and that is what I was planning on) as a last resort they where going to call cps, so I packed all my thing and was about to leave until my mom said I couldn't leave and that if I did she would have my friends parents arrested for trying to kidnap me and not putting children in school, so I am forced to stay in this house until I'm 18, I'm not going to make it like this, I feel trapped I just want out
  2. MyCatWillMissMe

    MyCatWillMissMe Well-Known Member

    Sounds like you've been through a lot. The only thing you can really do is find someone else to live with even if it's out of state friends or family. Running away or suicide are not good options until you've truly tried everything, even if it's not what you really want. If it's not safe in your home then you can go to the police and they may be able to put you somewhere else but it likely won't be full of rainbows and unicorns there either but at least you would be safe. You have a lot to do and experience if you aren't even 18 yet and it's worth trying to tough it out.

    My childhood was horrible and I wanted to die but I'm glad I didnt. As rough as it is as an adult sometimes it's a lot better than it was as a kid dealing with other people's shit. Now I only have to deal with my own shit. :)