Ahhhhhhh!! I can't stand myself. I feel so alone, even when there are others around me. I'm constantly putting on a happy face for those around me, and it is so hard. I don't feel like I can be myself with anyone. Except for my best friend, who I hardly ever get to see. Even with her, I'm starting to put on a happy face because she is so busy and stressed out with the things going on in her life. Even here, with total strangers, I have a hard time opening up and being myself, and talking about how I really feel. It's like pulling teeth. I'm starting to withdraw, which is not a good thing right now. I'm in a dark place. I need help, before it's too late.