Hello, I am new to the forum and I have been having a lot of problems lately. I have depression, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, bipolar, panic attacks, and PTSD. Late October I overdosed on pills resulting in almost losing my life and being in ICU for over a week, they said I wouldn't make it. I decided to take the rest of the month of November off of work and school to focus on me and I was still depressed, I am always asking myself why why did I make it? I went back to work the first week of December and decided to go back part time and I am back to school full time and I am beyond depressed and overwhelmed. I am already calling off, I can barely get out of bed, I am sick of being miserable all the time, I just want it to end. I also haven't been handing it my school work which is not like me at all. I have no personality, I can't smile, I can't cry, I feel like I am already dead inside. I miss the person I use to be and I want to be her again, I just don't know how. I am lucky if I get out of bed. I see a therapist and a psychiatrist but it doesn't seem to be doing much. I just want to give up.