I feel really dumb for posting what seemed like progress. She said she wants a divorce a few hours ago and it wasn't anger or venting she is totally serious. I posted about this in that dumb thread I made in another section of the forum. I think I was thinking an alternate plan to her but that things with us would work out in the end. It won't. We have five young kinds together. We live together. I really feel floaty and weird and am starting to think maybe this is all the dream of some child in centuries past who has the plague and is dying in his mothers arms and she is whispering gently to him that it is ok to go to sleep now, he did his best to fight it, rest now son, rest, your fight is over....no really whatever this is or i am i cant do it anymore. im done. The universe is fucked up and cruel and the only mercy is what you show yourself. This is mine.