Help

Discussion in 'Family, Friends and Relationships' started by summerraine, Apr 8, 2015.

  1. summerraine

    summerraine Member

    I have so many self-esteem issues. I've been told I'm pretty but I can count the rolls on my tummy and grab at my thighs. My whole life I thought I would be alone. I didn't think anyone could ever love me.

    Last year a guy asked me on a date and we started hanging out. He didn't want anything serious and I said that was fine and we had fun. Then he asked me to be his girlfriend. I said yes. Then a few weeks later, he dumped me, but we still were "together." A few weeks after that he wanted me to be his girlfriend again. I said yes. A few weeks later he changed his mind and we didn't speak for a week. Then slowly we started talking and decided to be friends. However, when university started back up we decided we wanted to see each other again and spend as much time together as we could. He broke it off a few weeks after that. I started chain smoking and drinking everyday. I couldn't sleep and I couldn't stop crying and cutting. Over winter break we started talking again and he said he missed me. When we got back from break we slept together two different times and then he ended it again. It's been completely over for a few months and I need help. I miss him so much even though he did not treat me well. He was the first guy to ever be romantically interested in me and I can't let that go. I need help because I'm so tired of crying about him still.

    Thank you so much.
     
  2. DrownedFishOnFire

    DrownedFishOnFire Quieta non movere

    Some people are horrible stringing peoples feelings along. It hurts as it was your first but you know once you meet the right man who treats you 100% better you will lool back and say what was I thinking!?!

    Sounds cliche but its true. Ive been there.
     
  3. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Hi there, this person was not treating you nicely and fairly,it sounds as if he was calling all the shots. You ARE BETTER than this person. I'd recommend going to therapy to help you cope now. To me he sounds like a jerk and you deserve so much better than what he was putting you through. You need to improve your self esteem and up your confidence, keep talking if it helps.
     
  4. summerraine

    summerraine Member

    Thank you everyone! I just found out today he has a new girlfriend and it has made some terrible feelings come up. I drank and smoke all day but managed to not cut! Here's hoping I won't relapse!