Something happened a few weeks ago, my parents found out about the drinking, selfharm, pills and found help for me. Now i talk with someone every week and i have meds. The thing is everyone is thinking now I'm doing so much better, selfharm is less, stopped drinking, have help, have a job, talking to old friends again. And i'm glad they think that, they stopped worrying. But now I am worried. Ok, I made some progress with those things, but my thoughts about suicide has gotten worse. Its not that I'm afraid to die or do it, I just cant put my family through that shit. I really want to die, I started drinking after a louzy suicide attempt and those thoughts has gotten less. Should I start drinking again?? Before its to late. I know thats not really a good way to solve this and I cant afford it, but its the only thing i can think of. I think constantly about suicide and i would love to die, but I cant hurt my family. I dont know what to do. I'm really afraid i will do it.. soon help ??