I don't know why i'm even writing this because there doesn't seem to be a problem, maybe its just despair or loneliness. I'm going to kill myself and i don't know what to do right now, i've spent the past 3 days sitting outside in the wet and cold and denied myself sleep .. yes i torture myself. I think i need someone to talk to .. not for help but just to talk. I don't know what to else to say my body feels sick and i have a bad headache and i feel like going into the attic finish it off.