Ok..this is my first time reaching out to anyone about what I feel. A part of me deep down knows what I want is merely relief from this unbearable pain. The thing is in the years I have lived, I have never felt anything close. It makes me wonder what the point would be to keep living in pain just to see if it gets any better or worse. In fact all it has done is gotten much worse. I don't think I would be so bad off if I just had someone. A friend. Someone to care about and to care for me. My husband is oblivious to my needs. I have pushed all my friends away because they simply did not understand. My family lives with the idea that I am just in a sad mood and they do not want to talk about it because it makes them uncomfortable. I feel extremely depressed on a daily basis, and I have no one to talk to on a daily basis. No friends, no family, no doctor. I have no insurance and cannot afford a doctor. I want help badly but if I have no one how will things ever get better for me? Please someone tell me if you have ever felt this way have you overcome this what can I do?