I'm sitting here crying tonight, and I don't know what to do. I want to kill myself so bad. I can't take anymore of this pain. I'm supposed to get on a plane for an interview tomorrow, and I can't stop sobbing. Why does every minute have to hurt so damn much? I want to go out to the garage, duct-tape the hose to the exhaust pipe, drop the other end in the car, close the garage, and just go to sleep.