(Please don't move this as I'm not registered and I'd like some help) I don't want to feel like this anymore. I don't want to keep fighting this battle when it's pointless. Why keep fighting an uphill fight when you keep getting pushed down? Why not face that no matter what you do or how much you better yourself they will never acknowledge the change? They will never admit that you are a good person because they only see what they want to see. They put on their blinders and see what they want not what you really are. I'm tired of it all. I'm tired of fighting. Tired of trying to make a difference. I'm so sick of pretending that people care. So tired of people saying they love me only to stab me in the back. Please, stop lying to my face. Please, stop pretending. I know it's all so hard to do, but why pretend to like me when behind my back you say you hate me. I would love to know what I've done to you to create these feelings. What did I do along the way to make you have such contempt for me? What did I do to you? Was it something personal because I'd like to remedy it all? Or is that too much for you? Is it too much to actually sit down and talk like ADULTS or do we have to continue as children and fight for our rattles? It's getting old and it's getting tiresome. Help me here nad tell me what the hell I did to you to deserve such hate and contempt.