I am so sorry that you are hurting tonight hun, First of all I want you to please take care of the cuts, wash and bandage them. I am sorry that you had trouble with another site. Try this site and talk to people and try to gain some support here. you already have one friend here, maybe you will be able to make some more.
I am sorry that you lost so many people in your life. I know that hurts alot, I know it hurts not to have a mom. I lost my own mother too when I was young. Basically I have had to make my own family. I know it doesnt really help to hear that much when you are young. Do you have other people in your life that you care about? Are you seeing a therapist? I hear that you are hurting right now. Think about maybe how your mom would feel if you hurt yourself...live for her hun. Take things slowly, please hang on and stay safe. If you feel that you can't stay safe, reach out, talk to someone, call a crisis line, call a hospital, go to a hospital if you have to. take care and please be safe. Feel free to pm me or other staff, or anyone you get to know if you need to talk. I will try to get back to you as soon as I can. Again please take care and be safe.
ari