Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by Kiba, Nov 4, 2008.

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  1. Kiba

    Kiba Well-Known Member

    Im suposed to go to this new group home on wendsday, but I dont wana go. I cant stay here and if I go I wont be able to be on the forums anymore, because its monitored. And no internet for atleast 1 1/2 months.

    I dont feel like I belong anywere. I feel like I might as well kill myself. :blue:

    Theres no were for me to go.... and I dont want to go to some stupid group home...

    I need help!
  2. Abacus21

    Abacus21 Staff Alumni

    Hey Swift ...

    Is it a definite that you'll go to the new group home? What's it for - is it like a foster home?
  3. Kiba

    Kiba Well-Known Member

    No its a definate and I DONT want to go I CANT go! Its like a treatment based group home. I might as well drink this thing and say goodbye to life.

    I just cant go there. I wont fit in. I feel like an outcast al the time.
  4. Kiba

    Kiba Well-Known Member

    Anyone gona help me!?
  5. mariemarie

    mariemarie New Member

    Hi, Swift,

    It sounds like you are in deep despair and feel helpless and hopeless. The anguish you are feeling is temporary - though it seems it lasts forever. Instead of giving in to the what your mind is saying - that you want to die - can you try to make it be quiet for awhile and just be still? I know that you have an incredibly creative mind - you write beautifully. I don't know what to say to help you. I also feel very desperate at times. But I do know that it will get better. Perhaps in the facility you will meet someone who will be kind and responsive. Can you tell me about the facility? I know that some of those places can be awful with uncaring staff and stupid rules - group every day (now everyone let's talk about why we are here.... and you think - Jesus, you do not get it, lady) and therapists who don't know what they are doing and have no compassion for the people there. But, sometimes there are good caring people there who can help. Listen, I've got to go vote - it's an hour drive, but I will check back when I get home. Take care of yourself and remember that you are loved and your life has real value. You may be so deep in pain - I see from old posts that you have suffered a long time, but you are loved.

  6. Kiba

    Kiba Well-Known Member

    I just dunno much about the place. I went to visit once and Im sposed to go tomarrow, If I dont die tonight.

    I really feel bad and miserable. I dont wana die but I see no other choice. If I do go there Ill never be back on this forum. in either case I wont be back, because things are monitored there.

    So I dont know what else to say. I didnt feel like it would work for me. Too many rules, Too much u gota do, no privacy (rooms have no door), etc.

    Its just a mess. I HATE IT :(
  7. wheresmysheep

    wheresmysheep Staff Alumni

    i think you answered your own question, you said 'i dont wanna die'
    well going to the group home, although hard, and frightening, will HELP YOU
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