hi, I am just writing because I dont really know what else to do. I have been at college for a little over a year and am having a really hard time. Last year I as diagnosed with generalized anxiety and have been taking medicine for it ever since. Every time I take my medicine I always contemplate just dumping the whole bottle of pills into my mouth and I am afraid pretty soon I will actually do it. Its not that I am afraid to die, what is holding me back is the possibility of not dying if I were to do it. If I were to do it and live, I would be so embarrassed and feel like I embarrassed my friends or family. I have started cutting recently and each day the cuts get a little deeper and bloody. I feel like me being so sad is such a burden to my family and friends who get annoyed so I think it is just easier to put an end to everything. Anyways, thanks for listening, it is much appreciated.