Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Rukia, Apr 16, 2010.

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  1. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    I'm sitting here with all my pills and trying to convince myself that I don't need to take them.

  2. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    Please don't take them. :hug: What's wrong?
  3. 8125

    8125 Well-Known Member

    you don't need to take them. talk about it? we're here
  4. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    I'm just so sick of living. Can't remember last time I wasn't suicidal. Looked through a notebook from 4 years ago, nothing has changed
  5. DreamReaver

    DreamReaver Well-Known Member

    been in the exact same situation like probably many others, what stopped me, the fear of what happens if it does not work. Not very useful advice. But i know the feeling, you are not alone in this.

  6. ~Claire

    ~Claire Well-Known Member

    Please get rid of the pills hun :hug:.
  7. 8125

    8125 Well-Known Member

    i know how you feel
    think of any reason you have to keep going. people, events, anything.
    hell, at the moment i'm sticking around for the soup my grandma's gonna make for me tomorrow...
  8. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    Get rid of the pills? :eek:hmy: Can't do that.

    What has stopped me in the past is that I usually thinks that it's better that I'm in pain instead of my friends.
  9. 8125

    8125 Well-Known Member

    try to make that enough just to get you through again tonight (or today - don't know where you are)
    and please at least move the pills away from you. of better yet don't even touch them and move yourself away from them. just to another room.
  10. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    I can't move them, I need them. Think I'll start taking a few...
  11. 8125

    8125 Well-Known Member

    please don't take them. talk to us. give us time to try to help. please say you'll wait a while if nothing else.
  12. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    I guess I can wait a couple of minutes. Play with them for a while, tell every one of them that "I'll eat you soon".
  13. lightbeam

    lightbeam Antiquities Friend


    We all know what you are going through. We ache to be free just as much as you. We don't want you to go, because there is something, anything to live for.
  14. 8125

    8125 Well-Known Member

    anything that'll keep you hanging in there :)
    what happened to make you choose tonight to get your pills out?
  15. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    The only reason I have stayed for this long is because I don't want to hurt anyone. Thats not a real reason for living.

    The pills were calling for me. I don't know.
  16. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    Hanne..don't take them...please put them away and go do something..anything.
    I have a container of pills I've had for 20 years and never took them..even though I wanted to many times...they wouldn't even work now anyway but what I'm saying is I get where you're coming from.
    they were my security blanket for when it got too tough...I never took them..
    I'm still here and you can be too...get some more help and stay....:hug:
  17. 8125

    8125 Well-Known Member

    not wanting to hurt anyone means you have people who you care about and who care about you. that's a reason to stay alive.
    if it wasn't i probably wouldn't still be here
  18. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    I'm too weak. :i'm sorry:
  19. jenniferelaine

    jenniferelaine Well-Known Member

    Don't. Overdoses are painful and rarely successful.
  20. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    I have planned more than an od.
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