Ricky, I went through a similar point in my life, and I know it's rough, but although you may not notice them, there are people who do care for you, or want too.
You've got to learn to live with yourself, it doesn't matter what other people think you should look like, be happy with yourself. That is the real you, who you are, not what magasines or T.V say you should be.
And you are loved, I love you, and anyone else brave enough to post their problems here. :hug:
I hope you get through your trial, Take care
*OWL*