I am seriously depressed. All I can think about is running away and hiding from the world! I feel like I have f***** up beyond all belief! I have made so many bad business decisions. Jesus jesus! Does anyone know where I could possibly get about $500,000 to $1million dollars? I used to think about hurting myself, but I am too chicken to do it! Now all I can do is wait for the axe to fall for financial mismanagement. Geez, can anyone help me? I have made way too many mistakes. Anyway I could win the lottery? The only thing that will save me is divine intervention. Help me somebody.