I don't know how to keep these thoughts away anymore... I'm bipolar and right now I feel so down and I can't (or won't) talk to anyone. My boyfriend has been helping but there's only so much he can do... He keeps telling me that I have at least 2 reasons to stay alive, my kids, but even that is not enough anymore... Why do I have to feel like this? I'm so tired of fighting everyday just to get out of bed and function... Of pretending that everything is okay in front of my colleagues and the rest of my family... Everyday I think of how I could jump XXX and noone would notice it, or how I could just XXX... Can anyone help me please?