Help. I don't want to live. I need help but anyone I turn to gets angry, reinforcing the need for me to leave them in peace. Noone understands how I feel and I can't seem to make anyone understand enough to help me. I can't do it alone. I want to die so bad. There's noone to turn to. I wish this was physical pain. So much easier to deal with in public. I'm just self indulgent. My partner gets so angry. He says I'm disrespectful of him and he doesn't want dragging down with me. He doesn't want 'that shit at his door'. I tried to turn to him to get support but he said 'how fucking dare you put that on my plate, I'm here for you but that's it'. Who do I talk to? Please help me, I need someone to help me. I just need someone to give me a hug so I can sob into their chest until I'm empty of tears. Its the only way I see of getting any peace before death. I need someone here to help me in person. I hate myself for being so selfish. This is why I don't deserve to have a life.