ugh. feeling really rough. just want it all to stop. want to quit therapy, crawl in to bed and just stay here. forever. on monday i told my therapist about something that happened when i was a kid, something i did when i was 9, and even though she helped me understand why i did what i did i still feel really terrible. i won't go into the details partly cos it might be triggering for some, but mostly because i am ashamed. it's a terrible feeling. i really want to self harm and i've not cut for 2 months now. i could just scream. or cry. i don't know. it's all too much.