I've lost my family. They hate me, they don't want to know me any more. I can't think and I can't breathe any more. I don't know what to do. Please somebody talk to me, please give me one good reason why I should stay because I don't want to keep on going through this, again and again, I want to be dead. They are the only thing that mean anything, and I think I lost them a while ago, but today was it, I lost the last of my family's trust and love, and I can't think. I have things to live for and I know that, and I know people would probably miss me, but fuck it I'm tired of living for other people when most of them don't want to know. Some do, I know, but I don't want to keep on going through this again and again. I hate feeling this way and I always do, so somebody give me some reason that isn't "things will get better" or "people will miss you" or whatever. I think the only reason I'm even here to write is that I know it's chicken shitish to run away. I really want to be dead. Please help me.