oh my god where do i start today has been one of them days where i just cant see the point in carrying on i really dont know how much i can actually cope with any more i just feel like screaming at the top of my voice just to see if anybody would hear me but i know there would be no point as its always me who runs around after my friends where are they when im in a time of need i feel so low and lonely and i cant see any way forward. i have been shouting at the kids all day today every little thing they have done has just pushed the wrong buttons and now i feel like such a bad mother as iv taken it out on them as im feeling so stressed and they are only young so they dont realise that certain things they are doing trigger me.
the kids are finally all asleep and now i cant stop myself from crying as iv got these stupid suicidal thoughts haunting me and my normal self arguing thats its the wrong thing to do and my kids need me but my stupid suicidal half is telling me they will be better off without me and to just get it over and done with OMG please help me out of this mess
the kids are finally all asleep and now i cant stop myself from crying as iv got these stupid suicidal thoughts haunting me and my normal self arguing thats its the wrong thing to do and my kids need me but my stupid suicidal half is telling me they will be better off without me and to just get it over and done with OMG please help me out of this mess