I feel sick just being in my own skin I ruin people's lives and I don't even mean to I don't mean to hurt people but I do cos I don't think they care I ruin anything that is good in my life and people are better off without me I make people so angry and I fail them as a person I really didn't think i was doing anything wrong I've looked up how to end it but I'm scared of the pain the x I have might not work and not finish the job I'm even failing at this