I am 24. I have attempted suicide twice in my life. Once at age of 14 by <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods>. I started to vomit and was taken to hospital. Then I again attempted at age of 17. This time, I tried to kill myself by 220 volt electricity. But nothing happened just some burns.Then I thought that it might not be possible to die before a fixed date decided by god. Now, I have immense feelings to kill myself. And now I have been planning to make it successful. And I know that I will be able to kill myself. My first attempt was due to my failed relationship. Second was due to panic in first semester that I will be getting very poor grades. But this time it not a triggering but a continuous feeling to end my life. The problem is that I can't convince anyone and my parents don't believe in me. They always underestimated me. And they always discourage me. Currently I'm doing MBA and have good job in hand. But they always doubt and say that this company will not give joining to you or they will cancel your appointment. They want me to try for jobs that are very bad compared to the one I have now in term of work and package. And after my first suicide attempt, I decided to never try for any relationship as it would really hurt me. But I tried this year and I was totally ignored. But the biggest problem is I am not able to find the purpose of my life. I wanted to start business/NGO in education sector, but all my friends and my parents want me to do job. Another problem is that I am a loner and I don't have personality to make friends or good team skills. Hence I won't be able to do anything in my life. If I couldn't find any good solution then I will suicide after 3 weeks.