I’m going to say this really bluntly because I don’t really know how to explain it any other way. My daddy and his friends mentally sexually and physically abused me my whole life. He has been gone for four years now. I haven’t seen him or heard from him. I live with my friend in a small apartment. I have no contact with any of my family whatsoever… my problem is that I’ve have had nightmares every night for the past two weeks and woken up shaking and crying. I can’t remember the dreams but I know they are about my dad and the things he use to do to me. I can’t sleep because I’m scared I’ll have more nightmares, and when I eat I’ve been feeling queezy and often throwing up because what happened has been on my mind constantly. I keep having showers because i feel dirty and disgusting.. I can’t concentrate on anything or relax. I don’t have enough money to get professional help. I’m really shaken up and upset :cry: I though I was over it. i dont know what to do.. please help.