i'm having a really rough time and could use some advice on ways to help. i have been having severe episodes of depression. i don't get the manic stage, but i'll go rapidly from feeling just ok, to being severely depressed and suicide. i'm not sleeping, or sleeping to much. sometimes i will go days without sleeping, and some days i sleep all day long. the other day i was awake for only three hours, and then during that time, i randomly started sobbing my eyes out three seperate times for no reason. i am having severe urges to just hurt myself and go to the hospital. i moved from north carolina to texas to be close to my dad who is my only support and he has given up on me. he told me today that i am to unstable to be around family and attend his wedding this weekend. he also told me that when he is on his honeymoon the week after the wedding, i can't call him even if i am going to the hospital. i feel so empty and helpless. its hard to get better when several times a day i get severely depressed. what do i do? i feel that my only options are to die, or live in a hospital. please any advice would be helpful.