I'm new here and I'm not really sure where to post this as it considers the suicidal feelings of more than one person. But anyway this is the situation. I have myself had thoughts of self harm for quite a while now and about 3 years ago on Christmas Eve I seriously thought about taking my own life. I have never told anyone about this before as I do not want people to worry about me. Now, about a year ago I stated talking to someone online and eventually became very good friends with them and even developed a crush on them. They began to tell me about themselves and their own life and revealed that they had a condition that would mean that they would eventually become completely paralysed within the near future. Through this and a number of other factors they were very depressed and suicidal. I became extremely worried about them and I still cannot stop thinking about what will happen to them if I do not help them. I have stayed up night after night trying to stop them from taking there own life but I myself have been on the point of ending mine, and I have begun to self harm, and spend most nights in a state of distress. I have told them that I want to try and help them, but they keep telling me that they'll be alright and will get by, yet every time they tell me they are going to give up and then disappear offline, its everything I can do to stop myself from ending my own life, as I feel that I have failed them yet again and I would never be able to recover from losing them. The both of us feel we cannot talk to any doctors or ring a suicide helpline, so this is why I've turned to here for help. I want to make her believe that she can make it through and in doing so, so can I.