Please just help me. I would write a huge post but that's really all It'll come down to. I don't think anyone really can because I don't know what to ask for help for or what it is I need help for! I don't know what to do or who I'm supposed to be! I've ruined my life and everyday before this month was another tiny blip of ruin on the radar of my life. But now I'm just empty and hollow and my existence seems meaningless and pointless and I feel like a burden on everyone around me because I can't take care of myself. And that whole thing melts down to a 'help me'. Like everything I do and say. But nothing can and nothing will right? If it comes down to my choice I probably won't do it. I"m helpless because I want to stay that way obviously.