After 7 days i do have my exams.the most important exam of my life and i dont know how am i gonna perform.i cant damn fail this time.i do wanna paas but i need 65% to get into the navy and i know i may not get it coz i even doubt that i may get passed out or not.NO 1 can help me now Oh god am i not the blessed 1? Sometimz i feel...why the hell i m alive...for whom..coz after my exam its all over...if i dont get into navy..i dont know..i may end mah life..damn..i knw i cant do that..coz i want to do something in my life....but these devil feelings do come in my mind when i dont succeed..I feel i should copy in my examz and i dont mind getting debarred for 3 yrs..damn...or else do i have any other damn option...studying is like..i m very much tensed about thinking all these things and i cant concentrate...sometimes i think of leaving my house and should go somewhere...OH god i m so confused in my life.I m tired....toooo tired of my life..i dont have any friends...who stay near by my house...I alwayz needed a friend like me....i need some 1...i dnt have any 1 with me...i dnt have any true friend..i m unlucky in finding gud friends...coz there's no 1 to share mah feelings...only sum net friends thats it...I m sick of my life and after all this...if i dont get into navy i wanna be "DEAD"...coz damn..i dont have any other option...But i knw i cant kill myself....if i had the power to donate my life to some 1...i would have done that...but i cant waste my life....by ending it.I m just 19 and i do wanna make my life better....But now its like i cant live nor i can die..huh.It feels like why am i alive...so many people get killed in some way or the other...if i where that some 1,it would have been nice coz i am fed up and tired of my life.