Tomorrow is Laura's 20th birthday. It's been almost 5 months since she's passed. It's still hard on Dylan that's for sure, probably twice as hard for my brother, Shaun. I know both of their lives were altered dramatically. Dylan still has random moments where he'll think of her or see something that reminds him of her and he'll burst into tears. The sound of him crying alone breaks my heart but then the added questions of why her kills me. It's hard. It'll get easier but it'll never be okay. He's too little to have suffered so much. He loved her alot. He talks about her alot of the time. The poem he wrote for school was really sad. It basically revolved around her and how he knew she was in a better place but that it still hurts all the same. He knows. He's a smart kid. He knows she's watching him. I think we'll get balloons for tomorrow and send them to heaven again. That way he can feel that she's here...at least for a moment. Happy Birthday Laura. I know for a fact Shaun and Dylan will always love you. Always.