I haven't posted here for a while. I actually thought I wouldn't be here again. How stupid of me. How naive. I'm here again. I want to kill myself. I've almost never stopped wanting to kill myself for the past year or two, but today has been hell. I don't know how I'm going to make it to tomorrow. I can't handle these emotions. I thought about calling my therapist, but what can he do really? Nothing. I'll be asked how serious I am about killing myself, and I'll be given alternatives to self harm. But there will be no solutions to the pain and anguish of being alive. So what's the point? And that's why I'm here again. I need help, but there is no help to be found.