i was quite hopeful when i found this site. so many seem to be just stupid or lack the proper information. i do understand why you dont put an a.b.c of exactly how to do it for fear it may encourage people but for people who have made their mind up and really want to go to be left just guessing and wondering if it will work and how much of what to take (if you are planning on pills like me) is just horrible. i know everyone is different and some may need more than others but i have a right concoction here and i am afraid i will throw them up and survive. i wont be found for at least a couple of days so hopefully will have time to go but i am just scared of not getting in right in the first place. i agree that at some point in the future we people who are so unhappy MAY feel differently, but at the end of the day it is our choice and if we dont want to live with pain and misery any more then that is our choice and some useful advice would be helpful.