I did it again... got really, really drunk and made a fool of myself. Talked to my new neighbors (2 girls) i dont remember what i said to them but i remember them walking away and calling me a fucking freak and laughing... What makes me so disgusting?? Why do i feel like i should keep my mouth shut around people?? Argggh i feel like im losing my mind : ( The hangovers just get worse and worse!! They are so threatning!! Its like i have another conscience sitting next to me with a disgusted look on his face making me feel utterly pathetic. I just want to go to sleep forever. I dont feel so worthless in my dreams..