Well i am back to the same old way i was. i thought that if i made new friends and started to be more social that i wouldnt be here in my room thinking about ways to kill myself. i dont know what to do anymore i tried different things but it all ends up the same way and now that i am out of ideas i dont know how much longer i can fight it off. i dont know what to do, the only options i have left are to kill myself or rely on drugs and alchol to keep these thoughts from surfacing. i cant tell any friends or family because i dont want them to think bad of me and i cant get any help because i dont want anyone to find out i just dont know what to do anymore.