Life was going well. I was recovering, bullying is decreasing, fell in love with a girl that doesnt treat me like crap, doing alright in my classes...life wasn't perfect, but it was bearable, and that's all I wanted. Then something happened, I snapped again. Except, instead of anger, it was something else. I can't smile any more. The truth is, because of all the exams and price if university, and tests becoming corrupted, and global issues, Im going to have next to no future. Everyone around me still has the ability to smile, all those who were still my friends are now getting popular, leaving me behind as I am hated by 99% of the kids here. Everyone else seems to be handling school better than me. Then there's Taylor. I know it's love. Every time I look at her, I smile, everytime I think about kissing her I get goosebumps. I can't think of anyone else but her. I just wish I could hold her hand, just once you know, just kiss her and tell her how I truly feel. But I can't. I can't put it into words, and even if I did, I'm not good enough for her. She's perfect, and I'm just the idiot that's too scared to tell her just three words My family life is getting worse. My mum is getting my dad angrier each day, and his anger is directed at me and me sis. Nit physically, but soon I think that will change. I have to work and work, while facing more beatings from school. I just have to learn to hide the bruises just like I hide the cuts. And, worst of all, I'm at the mental stage where I have to tie down my arm to stop it from ripping my voicebox put (I hate my voice, as well as many other features of my looks and personality. Trust me, I'm no prize). I know this is nothing compared to other people here, and I don't expect any one to comment, I just needed to say that I did write it down. You can just forget me, or that you ever read this. I won't blame you, there are people on here who deserve your help more than me.