So, when I was supposed to have a wonderful day because I've let go of all the stupid memories. I promised myself to try avoiding the symptoms of being borderline but nothing and no one had helped me do that. It just got even worse. I know I should have done such unmentionable thing 2 months ago. This is ironic but I'm even anticipating a week's lecture on psychiatric nursing. And I'm the one that's ill. I just don't know what to do anymore. This life is hopeless. :blub: