This is really dumb but I just feel like venting somewhere. I feel like I'll never find happiness. I know... I know... I'm only 22, but I've been stuck with a crappy personality since forever and I can't seem to get better. I keep getting alienated by people. I feel so weird... People don't understand me, they just pity me. I don't understand what could make me happy. I really try but always fail. Wish so badly to become a better person... Tried meeting shrinks but it's failed every time. Nobody cares... my family, my friends, my schoolmates... Why was I even born? I tried to kill myself once before but it only resulted in a 2 day stay in an hospital's mental ward. This time I think I can do it if I jump off a bridge. Should be simple enough. I don't know what else to say aside from the fact that I feel like I'm a terrible person and I wish I could disapear.