always at night. why always at night? i dont know what happened to me, i was just happy. now, i'm not. i'm miserable. why can't i just be one mood? If I just went through with it, I wouldn't have to deal with life. because i would be dead. I wouldnt have to be anyones problem, anyones therapy bill, anyones money waster. I would be one less mouth to feed, one less person to take care of, one less anything. yeah, people would miss me...and that used to keep me going...the thought of people being sad. but not anymore. i just want to die sleep stop breathing stop living im going to die. its going to happen at some point, why not now?