Well... I have once again gotten to what seems to be my lowest I have been in a very long time. Just kind of seems like life is crushing me right now. My girlfriend knows something is wrong and wants me to talk about it but I can't seem to bring myself to. I just know that the way I feel is just going to upset her a lot and I don't want to do that.. fact is I don't know how to pull myself together. I never do. I'm heading toward some serious self destruction and I'm not even wanting to stop it. I guess its my way of giving up.