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here we go again

neutralbuoyancy

stuck in place yet again
#1
(this is just a feeling i get about a family member not creative writing)
ahh, it's here yet again
that familiar yet cold feeling
i feel it from the bottom of my heart
i feel like im about to drown again
bathing in this familiar darkness
it is like a eerie force pushing me
trying to make me take action
almost longing
for that sweet feeling of relief
I can almost imagine that knife
the feeling of a heavy weight, in my hand
but the feelings of future guilt, reason, and regret, they all form invisible chains restraining me back
but what can i do?
I can almost taste the sweet feeling
the feeling of blood yet to be shed
yet, the odd feeling of pleasure, rising up
how long can i still hold on?
the psychosis is crawling
its spreading inside me
for now i can control it
but each time, my restraint is tested
bits of my sanity become lost
will she able,to survive this wrath?
but too bad she brought this upon herself
each passing second
each passing minute
each passing hour each passing day
each passing week
each passing month
the longer she stays the worse
we become
but what will happen after death?
what is going to become of us?
this is i do not dare make happen
once rationality is lost
once sanity is lost
and once the most insane of is gone
there shall be no return
each passing year
 

Mr.notduck

Well-Known Member
#2
Time after time
The voice returns
The creeping darkness
I start to shake

The familiar feeling is nice
The familiar feeling is crushing
I press the metal
Back to reality back to the fear

I cant stop
I cant not
It brings me away
From that sad sweet voice

It brings me down
It keeps me here
Why am i so broken
Back to reality back to the fear
 

neutralbuoyancy

stuck in place yet again
#3
Time after time
The voice returns
The creeping darkness
I start to shake

The familiar feeling is nice
The familiar feeling is crushing
I press the metal
Back to reality back to the fear

I cant stop
I cant not
It brings me away
From that sad sweet voice

It brings me down
It keeps me here
Why am i so broken
Back to reality back to the fear
fear keeps up alive
far far away from that sweet heaven
a dream we wish can come true
yet, its an unattainable paradise
reality, just like time, luck, and fate
proved to be a cruel mistress
it gives me faith, it gives me hope
it gives me fear, it gives me despair
Yet, this mistress is the one I choose
For now, she has taken away, my deepest, darkest, self
For now she brings light, and relief
that is only for now
 

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